Day 2 late night (mom)

Hey! There was nothing wrong with your diet today. Except possibly, like me, too much healthy food. Dinner was very healthful. Three potatoes between four people (yes, two are little kids) plus handfuls of veggies: carrots, onions, kale, summer squash. Eat the rainbow! What's unhealthy about that? 

Berries and yogurt are GOOD for you. Okay, if, like me, you ate two big bowlfuls of frozen berries with yogurt and cream and cajeta - that's what I used for sweetening, what did you use?- you may be feeling, as I am, that the second bowl was too much. I don't eat junk food very often, I don't pig out on chocolate or chips very often, but I do eat way too much good-for-you food. It's possible I downed 600 calories worth of frozen berries and yogurt. It's probable that my tummy will feel funky for the whole night. Is it also possible that I will learn from this and eat only one bowl next time?

It's possible. 

Day Nine- Emo Pajamas (Daughter)

Food Log:

Scince last entry:
Blueberries with cream and maple syrup, a small cookie, a bite of whatever the pastry mom bought downtown was, the dinner mom described below, raspberries, a handful of baby carrots.
Not very healthy, eh?

As for exercise, I'm ashamed of myself. A little haying, walking around the raspberry festival and downtown, and like 5 minutes of bouncing on the trampoline. Other than that I've been sitting around reading Oprah magazine. Go figure.
I got these cute emo pajamas at a thrift shop near the raspberry festival, and they fit fine.... for home. They're tight enough to camel-toe if I don't watch it. Ack! All my bulk is concentrated in my belly and upper thighs. The only thing I'm going to regret about losing weight is losing some of cleavage and butt. Last time I was at Annie's house, she was having me try on all her clothes (TRY being the key word! She's about six sizes smaller than me!) and when we found a pair of pants that fit (tightly) she was all like "Girl, you got a butt going on!" And she's right! It felt awesome to know SOME part of my bulk is actually attractive. Not that my mom likes seeing me in tight pants. C'mon mom! Skinny jeans look good on fat chicks!
As for the emo pajamas, the only thing I really hate is that they stop right where my belly begins. Major gross factor:

Day 2, 7 pm (mom)

I'm about to start cooking dinner: roast yukon gold potatoes, sauteed zuchinni and onions, romaine and snap pea salad with vinaigrette, and herbed goat cheese. Raspberries and cream (okay, yogurt with a little cream added) for dessert.

Food Diary : filling in the gaps here, I already posted breakfast (toast and goat cheese, blueberries). Lunch was a bento box including salad, rice, two pieces of tempura, teriyaki chicken and beef, and three pieces of a tuna roll. Too much food, I could've eaten half. The, since we were at the Lynden raspberry festival, a small sundae of vanilla ice cream and raspberry sauce. 

A tiny snack downtown, one sixth of a baguette with tomatoes and cheese. And another doubleshot of espresso. 

Exercise: Farm chores, pushing goats around, trimming hooves (made me sweat) and haying a little bit. Walking around the Lynden raspberry festival. Walking around downtown a little bit. This isn't much exercise, is it? Not considering that to seriously lose weight you are supposed to exercise 90 minutes a day. But also! Start slow! So okay, while I watch TV tonight, I vow to do at least 10 minutes on the elliptical. Hear that, R.? Hold me to it, 'kay?

Day Nine- Mid Afternoon (Daughter)

Food Journal Entry:

Breakfast: None.
Lunch:
3 pieces of sushi, yakisoba, and a large bowl of udon soup. Raspberry sundae, cotton candy, blueberries.

Day 2 (mom)

Hi Sweetie,

I think it's very very brave of you to post your fears packet where I can read it. 

Of course you want to feel beautiful and sexy. A girl your age as a right to feel beautiful and sexy! Let me tell you a little secret that I've learned (painfully, over and over again) through the years. When you are older and you look back at photos of yourself from this age, you are going to think, "My God! I was gorgeous!" 

Really.

Really. 

Here's another little secret. I, too, want to feel beautiful and sexy. (Ewwwwwwwww.)

Your fears are very very familiar to me. I have, at one point or another, felt all of them. Most people have. Some of these fears I no longer have; I have found love (and I wasn't skinny when I did) and I'm not afraid of losing it because of my weight. I'm afraid that as a married woman, some of my inner feelings and fears aren't really appropriate to share with you and so I doubt I can be as open as you are being (Shout out to all the married ladies who know exactly what I mean).

But I can be completely open and honest about my food journal.

It's 9 am.

Four squirts of goat's milk straight from the teat (Ewwwwwwwwww.)

A quad shot of espresso with a tablespoon or so of half and half

a slice of whole wheat bread with herbed chevre

a handful of fresh blueberries

check back in later.